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memes..... ^^;

2008-02-23T19:08:32Z

A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".

1. I like being clean.. sooo utterly clean. And amazingly, I've been moving from 'pretty boy' clean to natural clean! I just got some new burt's bees soap which smells OHHH soo good. Orange Spice (w/ cinammon) FTW! I also like all my belongings to be clean and orderly. You wouldn't have known it looking at my room for the last quarter and all of this quarter, but now that it is neat, I feel much more at peace, and able to concentrate. It's amazing.

2. I have this habit of typing really fast... I'm not sure if it's a good thing because I can beat everyone I know when IMing, or a bad thing because it painfully shows my ex-addiction to text games which forced me to type at 140+ WPM (no joke, that's what I'm typing right now). I look at it under both lights... it's a blessing and a curse.

3. Gamesss. I love a good game, and will always play one. I have a nintendo DS for those times when I can't be at my computer, and an iPod Touch to play accelerometer games. yayz!

4. I'm pescatarian (vegetarian who eats fish) so that's yayz0rz as well. I luffs my fruit and veggies (and especially my Naked (tm)!!!)

5. Desptie all of this clean orderliness, and my vegetarian habits, I'm still overweight! Such a weird fact about me. I guess it's because I sit in front of my computer way too much doing things like this, but fie on the world! I'm a programmer so get over it!

6. Spiders scare the shit out of me.. and if for some reason they don't, I'm usually merciful and let them outside. My brother on the other hand is scared shitless and will kill them on sight. Arachnids beware!

7. Tea is my favorite beverage in the world. It's OH so amazing. Yay tea. Need I say more about that?

I hath tagged ye following... do reply hastily or the wrath of the lord shall be brought down upon you!
__bethel__, adrenalineburn, elenbarathi, livi_smiff, lobstermage, multiplyxbutton, porcelainart

nachor @ 2007-05-16T13:32:00

2007-05-16T18:32:33Z

My Senior Project at my school is to build a computer and teach myself to program in java... I got the computer all built, and while I'm still figuring things out about it, it is running excellently. I paid a low price for prime parts (if you're interested ask me, i'll tell you what they are) and got it all working in a couple hours. First I installed Linux... after that was finished, I installed Windows. Everything was working fine, and then I hooked up to the internet without putting up my firewall, or without downloading any sort of antivirus or adware/spyware remover. Needless to say I tried downloading something that was questionable in content, and once I did I instantly regretted it... I all of a sudden recieved at least 10 trojan horses (viscious viruses for those who don't know) and a couple adware and spyware programs. Windows instantly went 'ack!' and i panicked... to make a long story short I eventually got AVG and though I had fixed it all up. When I unhooked it fromt he internet and brought it back to my room, i turned it on and my onboard HD Audio wasn't able to start. I panicked again, spent hours worrying and trying to fix it. This morning I got up and started remembering a conversation I had had with a good friend and an intellectual a few days ago about how one of his friends was able to make an elevator work that hadn't worked for 10 years just be correcting his though about it. I was interested to see if this worked, so I sat down and started acknowledging that it's a computer and that it can't have a mind of its own. I had been planning to reformat windows again to see if that would work, and so I did, and voila! Audio worked excellently! Didn't have to give it another thought.

So I'm pretty grateful for that, because now I can procrastinate my programming in sound! Woot!

ZOMG its OVER! w00t!

2007-05-11T20:05:44Z

So. Two weeks ago I finished high school... feels damn good. Just took my AP Stats test on Tuesday.. it seemed like it went well which usually isn't a good sign. My Chem AP test is next tuesday.. after that I'll be free for the summer and its off to europe! But off to Cali first... anyway. I'm working on my may project right now.. it's going very well... especially thanks to dragon roommate who helped me find all my parts for my computer. I put it all together, connected it all up and bam, it worked. Windows on it, configuring linux for dual boot, then it's off to programming for the rest of the month. I wish my project was as exciting as said roommates, but oh well... not particularly smart enough. :p.

So, for all of your records, here are my summer plans.

I'll be home in PT by June 4 or 5... will be leaving on the 21st. If any of you old town friends wanna hang out, let me know, that's really my only time free for almost the whole summer.

Next, June 21st (i think) i'm heading down to Cali to visit with my Uncle, and soak in the sun for about 10 days... that'll be awesome. Any of you crazy friends of mine in So. Cal. that wanna see me, I'll be in Oxnard Shores or hiking(if anyone wants to come hike, I could try to arrange that).

After 10 days is up, I'm getting on a plane out of LAX to go to Heathrow! Woot first time in Europe! I'll be in London those first days for the day I arrive, that night, and half the next day... I'll be back in London later, so if anyone wants to see me that is there, let me know! After London, get on the train and take a ride over to Wales where I will be staying for 5 or 6 days with some relative. We'll be hiking extensively and pretending we know how to speak Welsh. Heading up to a hidden teahouse in the mountains. I'll gladly meet anyone there! :) After Wales we jump on the train again and head up to Scotland to Edinburgh Castle for a couple days, to soak in my heritage :). After that, I'll be back down in London for a couple days, getting ready to leave, and making the roads to the historic locations. After that I'll be on the plane again, and in Cali for a couple more days, then I'll be flying back to PT. I'm not sure when I have to leave for school, but it'll have to be some time early August probably, so that's the rest of my time in PT. I'll be having a guest from school over for a week hopefully, so keep that in mind, but you guys are welcome to visit while he's here!

More later. Anyway, I have to go to work and shower.. missed the glorious water for three days and I smell kinda really bad... responsibility goes away when you don't have any time restrictions. Later!

Daniel

Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared. - Buddha

The Sum of my Day

2007-03-18T06:57:33Z

My March 17, 2007 can be summed up in this simple smile, and this shocking quote -- "And we commend Justine Marie Woyshnis to your care Lord, and your everlasting guidance."

All day, she has been on my mind. Sorry, this is kind of hard to write... I know it doesn't seem that way because you'll read this all at once. This picture is of one of my good friends, Justine Woyshnis. She passed about two weeks ago at the young age of 19. I can't stop questioning why it happened. The thing I feel worse about is that I hadn't talked to her in a couple years. I just got back from her memorial service, and I got all choked up... and now it's happening again. I told myself that I would be strong for those who needed me... but a person has to have a time to mourn. This picture means so much to me, I cannot even say.

Rest in Peace, Justine. I love you, and so does everyone. My heart will be with you forever.

Sickness sucks

2007-03-05T02:22:55Z

For some reason I have the urge to go to Japan right now. I just really want to be over there, eating their food, and immersing myself in their culture.

So the past couple days I've been pretty sick, it started with just a little cough that I got from one of my friends while he was sick, because i was helping take care of him while he was sick, and it moved on to a fever, headache, hard cough, and disgustingness. Saturday morning I woke up feeling worse than I had the day before, but taking it all in stride, just spent the day on the computer. Then my friend Matt invited previously mentioned friend, and me, over to his house, and we indulged in about 8 hours of playing System Shock 2, and watching Bioshock trailers (creeeeepy!!) Well we went to taco bell before the gaming began, and had some good dinner that was really bad for us, but still awesomely good. We got back, did our gaming, and then at 1130 i started feeling even worse, and decided I needed a break, and that I should try to get some sleep. So we made some Orange Spice tea (favorite tea ever besides white blueberry) and matt spent some time with his girlfriend which was cool. Well after his gf left, my friend and matt played company of heroes, which was amazing apparently, but I was out of it on matt's bed, trying not to disease it with my long series of coughs. After a lot of in and out sleeping for me, everyone decided to hit the sack at about 3 in the morning, and we all fell asleep. Well, turns out, this was my unlucky night:

I woke up this morning (all three of us shared matt's bed cause we're cool like that) got up, put my pants on, and sat in matt's desk chair. The next thing I remember is Matt helping me up from the floor, which I've apparently just face planted into, and putting me back in the chair after giving a very manly hug and a 'dude, you're ok'. I sat down, and he gave me my half finished bottle of propel. My face was void of blood, and my whole body was freezing, as well as cold sweated and very dizzy. I drank some water, and that didn't really help too much, but it kind of did. I realized that I hadn't eaten anything since yesterday afternoon at taco bell, so I figured that maybe I would feel better if I ate something (note that I was feeling very, very sick, and felt like dieing would be a less painful avenue) so I ate some poptarts and the blood instantly returned to my head and face, and I warmed up a little. After a while I was ok, but I wanted to go down to campus house, the nursing facility on campus. This simple want was denied because of the stupidity that comes with being a Christian Scientist. I called the dorm and talked to the dean of boys and he said that he wanted me to go to church (even though I could easily pass out again while I was there) I told him that I needed to go to campus house very badly, but he wouldn't let me, and he forced Charles (my friend) and me to have matt drive us back so that he could have his power over us again. He forced me to church and I spent the whole time trying to not to pass out and/or puke. It was very miserable, and I didn't really get any of the message of the class, which was the intent of going from the dean's standpoint, and I'm pretty sure that I took away from the class learning as well. Now I feel a little better, the weather was nice today and I went for a walk, and found that if I'm moving around, I feel better than if I am laying down, so I continued walking for a while. A little later into the day I noticed that my face was kinda messed up from dragging my face across the carpet when I passed out, having a bruise on my jaw and a couple rugburns on my forehead and side of my head. I ate more food, and am currently feeling better, although very tired.

On a completely different note, my friend Charlotte got dismissed from school, and was sent home. She's done a lot of shit, and she wanted to go home, but she was one of the only reasons i wanted to stay here. Call me crazy and infatuated, but I love her a lot, and she had just started to reciprocate the feelings. Looking back on it though, I think its better that she goes home, because she wants to, she's freer, and she's not around her boyfriend, who is a puny little 14 year old (she's 18) who none of her friends really felt like she should be dating until recently when they all smoked together (one of the reasons she is gone). In any case she's gone, and I miss her horribly, and the worse hasn't even set in, because I haven't been to work (tomorrow) yet, where she works too... it's going to be totally different than it used to with her not around because she used to take command of all the little kids we watch. DAMN i miss her so much :'(.

Now I have to write on philosophy for my english class because we are reading 'The Picture of Dorian Gray' bleh. I'm off to do that. Been a very sucky weekend.

Peace.
Daniel

life and relationships

2007-02-20T01:00:11Z

yeah. that's right. relationships. they suck.

so all the posts below about girls that I like are now despised by me, simply because of how gay this school is. First of all, I'm glad I'm not with my ex anymore, and i'm even more glad she's dating a black guy so that I don't have to worry about her calling me anymore. the one i talked about a long time ago is still the person i like most, but she's dating a freshman, and not likely to stop soon. Plus she is most likely leaving school. Pretty much life is sucking right now. There is a german girl that i'm interested in, and i think she's interested in me, but there is no occasion to pursue anything, so I will hold back for now. There is also a really sweet, pretty, and amazing canadian here that I wish I would have the guts to become a better friend to, but I'm afraid that my corrupted personality and outlook on life will fuck her up, and that is definitely not what I want. anyway. I wanted to through my thoughts out on paper.. well digital oblivion, but same thing I guess, and I did.

Peace.

Economics Report

2007-02-19T01:24:19Z

So here, after 5 hours of slaving and researching, is the wicked paper of mine, about economics, and Hasbro Inc. No feedback needed, read at your own risk. It is at least 6 pages in MS Word. DEATH. Now to write about Christine Gregoire. JOY!

Hasbro Incorporated

Company Description
Hasbro, Inc. provides children’s and family leisure time entertainment products and services worldwide. The focus of Hasbro is designing, manufacturing and marketing playthings for children and adults alike, of various sorts, such as, traditional board and card games, hand-held electronic games, trading card games, plug and play games, DVD games, roleplaying games, and electronic learning aids and puzzles. Specific products include boys’ action figures, vehicles and playsets, girls’ toys, electronic toys and plush products, preschool toys and infant products, children’s consumer electronics, electronic interactive products, creative play and toy-related specialty products. Specific brand names and trademarks include Playskool, Tonka, Super Soaker, Milton Bradley, Parker Brothers, Tiger, and Wizards of the Coast. Its customer base is large, encompassing private customers, wholesalers, distributors, chain stores, discount stores, mail order houses, catalog stores, department stores, and other retailers. The name of the company is based on the founders Henry Hassenfeld and Helal Hassenfeld, who originally named the company Hassenfeld Brothers, but later compounded the words together to create Hasbro. Hasbro’s headquarters are in Pawtucket, Rhode Island, and its current CEO is Mr. Alfred J. Verrecchia.

Management
Hasbro is managed by five key executives and an Executive committee. Alfred J. Verrecchia is the CEO, President, Director and member of the Executive Committee, David D. R. Hargreaves is the CFO, Principal Accounting Officer and Sr. Vice President, Brain Goldner is the Chief Operating Officer, Frank P. Bifulco is the President of North American Sales and Kenneth Romanzi is the President of the United States Toys Division. Hasbro has recently announced a new line of products that encompass something they have never sold before; a clothing collection. The collection features their products advertised and emblazoned on t-shirts and other cloth apparel. This has positively affected their growth so far, as the stock price has been steadily rising, as has the P/E ratio since the beginning of the year. Since the start of the company, leadership has been strong, being passed down from the Hassenfeld brother’s to their children and grandchildren, one of which still sits on the board of directors today. This line of one family keeping the business going increases the stability and effectiveness of the company because the traditions, knowledge, and experience are passed down from father to son. Hasbro has been on track on reducing costs and overall expenses by using mp3’s and smaller chips in their digital products, and switching to cheaper, easier to handle products that still catch children’s and adults attention. Hasbro’s subsidy, Wizards of the Coast has just reacquired a partnership with Lucasfilms Ltd. to continue production of the Star Wars roleplaying game and the Star Wars miniatures. This was a strong area of revenue for Wizards of the Coast, and will keep providing good income to Hasbro. Hasbro has been continuing a buyback program it has been running for quite some time. Since implementation approximately 10 percent of the shares outstanding have been bought back, and that number keeps going up as the year progresses. This buyback shows that things are going well in the company, and they are becoming more confident in their financial setting and status, and it puts Hasbro in gear to continue its growth.

Financial Position
In terms of finance, Hasbro is do excellently, having grown in value a lot since the beginning of the year. Currently the earnings per share is $1.29 which is up from $1.19 last year, and it is projected to go up to $1.50 by the end of the year. This signifies healthy and strong growth. The P/E ratio is neither undervalued nor overvalued; it is very ideal. Currently, the P/E stands at $22.87, which is within the ‘normal’ range for the NYSE market (between $10 and $25). Currently the overall revenue for Hasbro is 3.15 billion dollars, and it is expected to grow quarterly by 4.1%. By the end of the year Hasbro’s revenue will have grown from 3.15 billion dollars to 3.28 billion dollars. The future looks bright. In terms of debt, Hasbro is doing very well. They currently hold a total debt of 506.6 million dollars, with only $182 million of it due in the next five years. At the rate of growth of their revenue, they will be able to manage their debt easily, if the need arises. Their total debt is .000016% of their total revenue. Hasbro issues a 0.64 cent dividend currently, which is very far up from last year’s dividend of 0.45 cents. Over the past four years the dividend has steadily been increasing, starting at 0.12 in 2003 and going up to 0.21 the next year, 0.33 the next year, and up to 0.45 last year. Each year the dividend has been increasing by larger and larger amounts. The first change, between 2003 and 2004, was a 57% increase. From 2004 to 2005, the dividend increased by approximately 64%. The change from 2005 to last year was a 73% increase, and the change from last year to this year was a 70% increase. This is excellent dividend growth, and if the dividends keep increasing at this rate, next year the dividends could be 0.72 cents. For Hasbro to succeed in the future, they need to keep buying back their outstanding shares, increasing their revenue and decreasing their debt. Also they need to keep coming out with new products, and making new licenses for toys and acquisitions.

Product Development
Recently Hasbro has been delving into advancing the technology of their Playskool line of child learning aids by making them able to plug into computers and access the internet in a safe way. Also Hasbro has been cashing in on the new advancements in robotics, guitars, and other digital toys. The recent success of Guitar Hero the video game for the PS2 and other systems has lead the toy giants into making teach yourself guitar programs. They consist of little toy guitars that kids ages 5 and older can use, that provide color coded learning to figure out where the fingers go, and how to make the chords. The programs also feature jam modes and other interactive practice techniques. Robotics are also becoming a large part of toys these days, with many of them having voice recordings and pre-programmed movements. Hasbro was the creator of the Transformers, and now the Transformers are being robotized and cinematized. A live action movie about the Transformers is scheduled to be released this year, which will boost Hasbro’s revenues, as well as bring more popularity into their new Transformers toys. One of the new Transformers toys to be released is an Optimus Prime (a Transformer toy) helmet that a person can place on their head and talk through. When they talk some device changes their voice to sound like Optimus Prime’s voice. Recently Hasbro has been expanding into selling clothes and other apparel that bears the logos and familiar pictures of their popular toys and brand names. This expansion will bring more revenue, as the nostalgic toy collectors and eager children buy the shirts and clothes that represent their favorite toys and games.
Market Position
Hasbro holds the niche in the Toy industry because of its large consumer base, and its expansive component ownership. The products that Hasbro produces and sells appeal to all ages and all interests, ranging from learning tools to collectable card games. Hasbro has been around for a long time, they are more organized than their competitors, and they are better known around the world. All of these reasons are way Hasbro is the leader in the industry. Hasbro also holds the largest share of the market because of its numerous acquisitions and expansions. Hasbro has what is called brand name recognition. It sells toys and games under well known and loved names such as, Milton Bradley, Parker Brothers, Playskool, Transformers, Tonka, Super Soakers, Tiger and Wizards of the Coast. It is a well known, household name that most kids can identify. Its marketing strategy is a huge factor of its success. Hasbro basically has the monopoly on Cartoon Network commercials, as that is all that is advertised: toys. Hasbro puts kids in the target age they are trying to appeal to in the commercials acting and seeming happy, and enjoying using the toys. This appeals to the imprintable mind of young children, and the fact that most children today are spoiled, and if they want something, they will guilt their parents into getting it for them. It is these such scandalous marketing strategies that have earned Hasbro its name recognition status. Recently Hasbro has been releasing new and technologically advanced toys and learning tools that will mark a break through in the toy industry. In 2007, Spiderman 3, the Fantastic Four Sequel and Ghost Rider as well as Transformers, will be released as films. Hasbro has a firm hold on the rights for merchandising these films, and is bound to make a very nice profit off of them.
Risks
Hasbro has two major competitors in the toy market. The first is Mattel Inc. which is run by Robert A. Eckert. Mattel doesn’t hold as many subsidies as Hasbro owns, but it is still a profits and revenue competitor, as it holds the highest overall revenue in the industry, though it doesn’t have brand name recognition like Hasbro does. Mattel also doesn’t specialize in learning tools for infants and young children, they create more generic toys that are the ‘buy and throw under the bed two weeks later’ sort of toys. Hasbro’s other major competitor is Jakks Pacific, Inc., which has a smaller overall revenue than Mattel, but a larger revenue than Hasbro. It, like Mattel, does not have name brand recognition, but Jakks is more specialized in the types of toys they make. Like Hasbro, they create learning tools, as well as TV interactive learning games. They also make plush toys, soft body dolls and slumber sleeping bags. Jakks isn’t as spread as Hasbro either, and holds few if any subsidies. Hasbro beats out its two competitors because of the long history it has of quality toys that consumers like and want to keep. They have been around longer, and have been focused around one family, which allows an easy transfer of experience and expertise. Hasbro is not very sensitive to changes in the market. It has a beta of .95 which means that when the market goes up, Hasbro doesn’t go up quite as far, and if the market goes down, then Hasbro doesn’t go down quite as far. This is a valuable quality to have in a company, as it means that the stock price isn’t volatile, and will stay steady. It is a sound investment on these terms. It may take a little longer to appreciate because it is slightly behind the market, but it will stay dominant over its competitors.

Band Wagon

2007-02-19T00:45:05Z

[rant]
You wanna know what grinds my gears?
The fact that if anyone does something cool, or exciting, and they live in a dormlike setting, they will find that people have jumped on the bandwagon just to be cool, and taken on the accessories of such 'cool things' as their own. It pisses me off, because I am one of the originals. And these dumbass christian spoiled conservative dickweeds are poseurs who try to make themselves like me, and then they insult me. FUCK YOU.

[/rant]

The Soundtrack of MY life

2007-02-15T23:43:18Z

The soundtrack of my life.
Stolen from Nate!

Here's how it works.
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press Play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing; for extra cool points, add descriptions.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...
7. When you're finished tag some other people to do it!

Trailer:
Red Hot Chili Peppers - City of Angels

Music Video:
Daft Punk - The Brainwasher

Establishing Normality:
Muse - Uno

Prom:
Muse - Unintended

Life:
Muse - Showbiz

Mental Breakdown:
The Postal Service - Such Great Heights

Driving:
The Postal Service - Against All Odds

Flashback:
Enya - Once You Had Gold
//How fitting for a flashback... very LOTRish

Wedding:
Daft Punk - Aerodynamic
//Sounds like a trance festival. That's what I'm hoping for...

Honeymoon:
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Sir Psycho Sexy
//HAHA same idea as what nate got...rofl this is perfect by the way

Birth of a Child:
Wolfmother - Woman

Conflict:
Muse - Fillip
//Nice. Its rough and tough

Final Battle:
Matisyahu - Close My Eyes
//Not what I want to do during my final battle!

Death Scene:
She Wants Revenge - Disconnect
//OMG perfect. Listen to this song, and think of my death. It's awesome. And god, what a lonely, solemn death.

Funeral Song:
Muse - Sober
//Wow, what an upbeat song...

End Credits:
The All-American Rejects - Night Drive
//sweet!

CLEARLY, I DON'T have enough sexually oriented music... DAMN I FAIL.

More Accurate than mostof you think

2007-01-23T00:58:50Z

What Famous Leader Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

Well I sure feel like him. I feel like i'm hanging from a damn rope...

Life is a little different now

2006-12-08T03:33:06Z

I thought it was cold last two times I posted. Well now that it is december, well, lets just say my hair froze on the way up to dinner...

So lots of things are different now. The same femme, Diana, repealed her decision after senior retreat November 11, and we have been dating for 3 weeks yesterday, so thats an interesting twist to life.

Right now I'm also writing my senior speech, a requirement for all seniors, and I chose to write about my passed father, which is anything but easy, because i'm pouring everything i've got into it. Luckily for my teacher its going to be one of those 'i feel sorry for you and you made me cry, so I will give you 100 percent' which i have no complaints with.

I'm also working on an AP Statistics project which is kicking me in the ass. We have to create a game of probability and figure out all this shit for it, and it's realllllly hard, plus i have to simulate it 100 times, and I'm trying to program my calculator to do that, but failing miserably. it's a good thing i have till monday, or i'd be screwed. (the original due date was tomorrow, but the teacher moved it farther.

For all of you WA folk who know me personally i'll be back in-state on Dec. 14, but won't be alive again until the 15th (damn long flight with a stop over in chicago). So I hope to see you all, especially the few of you who I consider my extreme best friends. Anyway, I'll get back to you as soon as I remember, and when this damn speech isn't so hard to write, and when my Stats project isn't kicking me in the ass, and when the weather is not cold enough to freeze the balls off of a brass monkey........yeah. on that note.

Peace

Winter Days at the Top of the World

2006-10-18T03:10:00Z

The sun peeks over the horizon for a couple minutes, and then retires again beneath the horizon.

The sun peeked over the horizon for me this evening, only for a second. I watched Boondock Saints with an old roommate and had a good time. Now is the time that I go to bed, curl up in the fetal position, and cry myself to sleep.

Tomorrow I go to the Fed (federal reserve bank) and get shredded money, and then lunch at St. Louis Bread Co. (Panera's everywhere else).

Life is gay.

Global Cooling

2006-10-18T00:04:26Z

I sit down in the computer lab of my dorm, and log in to the machine in front of me. My belly and stomach are sore and pained from PE today. I don't know exactly what did it. I didn't do anything different. I just feel different. Perhaps it was a sense of dread for what was to come. Over the course of my computer time I get 5 calls, only three of which I cared to recieve, but I picked them all up out of courtesy. I'm not an ass to most people. It's five o'clock, intramurals is over for my friends, and one particular femme comes walking through the boy's dorm. I call to her, and she comes over. We talk for a couple minutes, and then she spurts out that she has decided who she wants to be with, between me and a guy back home. Her face lights up as she says, "I chose to be with him." I drop my head down a little, and avoid her joyous face. "That's great. I'm happy for you." I walk back into the computer lab, and sit down again. She just acts like nothing has happened. After two weeks, she defaulted to the answer I figured she would. After a while she leaves, and I decide its time to walk up to dinner. As I walk outside the world becomes colder around me, and I pull my fleece up closer to my body. Somehow though, the air is easier to breathe. I hang my head, console my crying belly, and go eat dinner.

I don't know what to do...

2006-10-12T14:22:14Z

I'm writing here because I can't sort out what i'm thinking about in my head, I need somewhere else to lay it out. One of my good female friends told me last week that she had liked me for a year and a half (I actually accidentally brought up the topic). That was a huge surprise to me. My mom and Uncle were in town the next weekend, and her mom was coming as well, so I didn't get much time to think about it. Last sunday, when the parents were thankfully occupied we ended up kissing (yes, my first time, oh boy...). I knew the whole time that she had a guy back home (we are both from Seattle) who she was 'taking it slow with', so over the course of the last couple days until now I have been toning it down because she is talking about making a choice. I can't focus on school for the life of me, hell I'm writing this during English class... I'm always just thinking about her, but I know that she has to choose, and she is having a hell of a time choosing, because she apparently loves both of us. I've already sorted out in my head why I'm the better choice, and why he's the better choice, and which is the better better choice, so I'm not going to write it down here. Needless to say most of my friends and adult guardians agree that I am the better choice, yet she is still having to take a week or so to decide. This is killing me, because I hate being led on, and deep down I keep thinking she isn't going to choose me, or that she's going to call him, hear his voice, and then want to be with him. So last night and the night before and all day yesterday I was talking with her and told her that she should forget about me, I'm fine, and that she should be with him, which is true. I'm used to being single, have been my whole life, so its no change, and he wouldn't necessarily understand because they are long distance, and she wouldn't be able to convey what she means to him. I keep telling her to give up on me, and then I hang up the phone, but the fact that we got close enough to each other on sunday that we were kissing without reserve signals to me that its something I should keep, but I just can't. I know the choice is impossible for her, even though its obvious to me. I have no idea what to do, and I've been praying and being open to God to find out what is needed, but it's not working out very well.

Before all this happened I was praying to see God's plan for me, to know what was needed of me to affect the world, and this is what has happened. Not a very good answer. I am probably overlooking something, but I am still trying to find the good in this situation, and failing miserable. As always.

The Family Prayer

2006-09-24T17:49:15Z

And shepherds we shall be

For thee, my Lord, for thee.

Power hath descended forth from Thy hand

Our feet may swiftly carry out Thy commands.

So we shall flow a river forth to Thee

And teeming with souls shall it ever be.

In Nomeni Patri Et Fili Spiritus Sancti.

Brothers. Killers. Saints.

Departure

2006-08-22T05:14:38Z

Yeah. On that note. I'm leaving in less than a week. w00t w00t. Can't wait to get out of here, and to break a not talk barrier with a lot of my friends. Though i will miss you all here in PT, i will be better off, again, in st. louis. anyway. i may just be trying to suck sympathy from my friends, but it seems like no one is here to talk about things i need to talk about. it always turns out that i'm the one helping. again. for the 10 billionth time. Damn. that's what i get for being kind and loving i guess. goes to show doesn't it...

Peace.
Daniel

Advanded Global Personality Test Results.

2006-07-27T03:12:37Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	40%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|	16%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	44%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|	16%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|	16%

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Ah yes... writing; the love of my life

2006-07-21T05:40:39Z

So everyone should check out andres_landis.livejournal.com. It's my new weekly to bi-weekly to whenever the hell I want story journal. I like to think of it as a comic strip, except with a story rather than a picture. It is about Andres Verrino who is a detective and investigator in the futuristic world that I am creating. It is sort of fantasy based, but also sort of not. Please! Tell your friends about it, LJ and non-LJ. Come take a look for yourself! All are welcome!

Daniel

Summer Update

2006-07-19T05:38:13Z

Yeah so I failed my resolution of posting everyday. But oh well. So a couple updates since my last couple of posts. Frequent readers will know who Mia is, and how I thought I was liking her. Well it escalated into extreme like, and then we went home which was kind of anti-climactic, but we found out that we like each other. I suspect she may have liked me for a long time, but I can't tell. It seems that a certain night we spent together I was confused about, but it turned out that the chemistry wasn't negative, I was just reading it wrong. We had this pretty awesome moment where she said her hands were cold, so I warmed them up with mine, and then placed her hand down on my knee with my hand over hers. I almost let my fingers slip between hers, but I didn't, stupid me, I thought that maybe she didn't like me, and didn't want to seem to pushing. Anyway, that moment ended, but it was a really good memory. I miss her right now, and I sent her a letter or two at camp, so that was awesome, but I have no idea when she is coming back because she told me she is going to be in France, and she was already in DC and at camp, so I have no idea when she's returning. Hopefully she'll pick up some fun stuff from France to show... maybe she'll even speak french better. :p. No one tell her I said that.

Daniel

yeahh!

2006-05-26T18:21:55Z

Long Day

2006-05-22T01:46:36Z

Don't really know what to think about today. I've got two weeks of school left, and one week until finals week which means one week until i'm finished with classes. I just pretty much finished a chemistry powerpoint on Hydroelectricity that my partner isn't being too helpful with, in fact I think she's ignoring me right now. I'm worried that she won't do her part, and that we'll fail the assignment. But I want her to get a grade, so I'm making her do some of the work.

I'm really tired actually, but dinner was good tonight. We had chili which was pretty good and I mixed it with some hot sauces, a piece of cornbread, some good tasting cheese and some oyster crackers which was very delightful. I had a nice big glass of water with it as well. I love the fact that water is so appealing to me now. I used to only drink sodas and that would be a lot of sugar to me, but I feel so much better now. I usually have one glass of orange juice in the morning and the water for the rest of my meals, occasionally having some soda or iced tea if i'm in the mood. I don't drink milk as much as I should, but I think when I get home, where the milk tastes reasonable, I won't have too much trouble getting my daily milk. Plus I don't think it really matters because my whole life at home I've averaged like 5 cups of milk a day.

I'm also really liking the fact that I can exercise whenever I want, and it actually feels good. One of my house fathers and I sat down and started thinking up of cool games to play. Some of the ideas including such things as Fencing Ultimate Frisbee, and Field Tennis. Ask me if you are interested.

The girl situation I'm not really sure about. This girl that I think I kind of like wasn't really too responsive yesterday evening, so I hung out with a friend of mine whom I helped with a little boy problem, and then she and I had a nice long conversation about how I'm a Teddy Bear and girls are more drawn to jerks and 'non-cuddly' guys. I threw out most of what she said even though she realized she had said i was a teddy bear at the wrong time in the conversation. So I had a lot to think about when I was falling asleep last night. As I was falling asleep Michael Pate called me which was awesome. He's in california until wednesday and we were catching up on what he's been doing. He's having a lot of fun, but I can't wait for him to come back.

In anycase, I am really thirsty and its hard to get cold water around here because our water fountain is putting out warm water. It's really warm out, and I'm personally overheated right now which isn't too exciting. I should go though, I think I have a lot of homework to do, so I'm off to do that.

Au revoir!
Daniel

nachor @ 2006-05-20T23:42:00

2006-05-21T04:43:38Z

"You are a TEDDY BEAR, girls don't DATE Teddy Bears!"

Jam Packed Day

2006-05-20T23:51:16Z

So today was pretty cool. I got to talk to Killian for a while which was sweet because she's really fun. So this morning I almost missed breakfast, but I decided i should run up at the last minute so that I didn't starve later. I got back to the dorm and chilled with Ron who is pretty awesome. I called Matt about filming, then when to go visit Lucy at WOW where she works, and that was pretty funny. WOW is a ladies store with perfume and the like, as well as some kama sutra lotions and some 'passion mints'. So we were talking and this mother and her little daughter came in, the daughter couldn't have been more than 4 years old. They were looking at the purses which were over the passion mints and the little girl asked, "What are passion mints?" I looked at Lucy with one of those, "Kids these days" looks, and then the mom replied "Their for lovin!" In a funny voice. We could hardly contain our laughter until they left. It was SO funny. So then I departed from WOW and went back to the dorm to get picked up by Matt, James, Ron and Andy, at which point we went to go film their goldeneye spoof which was pretty awesome. James was Brock Taggart, the james bond guy, and we did some pretty awesome shooting. Then Lucy came which was fun (lucy and matt are together) and then matt's older brother came which kinda stopped the mood. He was a dumbass and thought he was really cool, so Lucy and I chilled away from him. After a while we couldn't take him anymore and we weren't doing anything so we took Emily and Nick over to subway for a small lunch which was really fun. We got back and they were almost finished filming a martial arts scene that was pretty awesome, and then we all packed up and went to dinner, matt lucy and james all going out (they're day students) and the others of us going up to the dining room for some bacon cheeseburgers. Anyway here I am now, typing this before I go up to the grill to hear my friend Mia sing in the Boston City Lights set up that is going on up there. She and I hung out last night, and I think I'm starting to like her. We'll see what happens tonight. Anyway, yeah. So that's all, a fun day.

Daniel

PS I can't wait to start editing the movie with Matt. That's gonna be a blast.

Resolutions

2006-05-19T22:37:17Z

I've made a resolution that I shall post every day on my journal. That does not include posting in my communities, but just straight in my journal. I believe that it will help me organize my thoughts so I don't get so confused during the day when I'm encountering people. Hopefully it will help. I'm gonna go eat dinner, than if I get bored I guess I'll make my first post. I'll try to keep it as emoless as possible.

Daniel

TrustFlow results for nachor

2006-05-14T23:41:48Z

I tried out TrustFlow II for LiveJournal. The following people not on the friends list for nachor are close by:

munchiemom, the_extra_mile_, tsiankiio, nymphatacita, crankykitten, jsun4hees, spunshadow, jaktek, enigma_black, tdawgishawt, default_player, royec, ellgato, drthvadersguard, eleanorrigby, thewisesneeze, caderrant, dream_zero, doomedtobehappy, mourningrequiem, ertanax, kchan_love, heartgash, glorric (200 - 250)
bobifer, storyinthemakin, okcismelanie, withoutworld, teastainedlips, psychoambition, raw_ocean, kill_tempest (250 - 300)

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TrustFlow II: Who is closest to your friends list?